美丽的笨女人

不管是再能干，再聪明的女生，

有时往往在感情上显得最笨

美丽的笨女人，我们要振作！

everything happens, happens for a reason.

dear jane, 
this is a pieces of my mind. hope you find it interesting.

it's like that, that day i played a pop song on the piano, the song is an old old song i used to play when i wan in form 1 form 2. and suddenly this scene popped out of my mind. 
remember some of the prefects (who can play piano) are asked to practice school song and negaraku to play during the assembly? ya, im one of them and you were our ketua. and that time i was not able to play negaraku by notes and it irritated you alot. i used to feel bad but, somehow i think it doesn't affect me much.

and then one day, me and deb and mini were playing on the piano and i played the pop song i mention earlier, and i enjoy playing it so much. and suddenly you passed by and you said to me, "you can play pop song so well but what about the song i asked you to practice?"
and i was like... ahh... sad but still ok la. and i forgot what happen after that. 



well, i am saying this not because i want anything. just... as time went by now i realize. during that time, the reason i was not able to play the song, is not because i can't play or i didnt practice. its actually because a person is not ready. well, after all these years, after all the practices bla bla and at this stage im sure that im now able to play that song. so, same goes to kids when we are teaching. when a kid is ready to do something, they will eventually be able to get it done. likewise, when they are not, even if we force them, it's not gonna work.

another thing i figured out is, i actually found my talent and i realize i actually got that long long ago (even when the time i was able to play that particular pop song) 
it's that i was able to play by ear (hearing), not very good but actually quite well. after all these years i found it a gift. 


ah. anyway, thanks. if it's not you, im not gonna be able to think and get so many conclusion. well i think this is what we say, everything happens, happens for a reason. HAHAHAHAHA =)

知错了！

有位 ah pek 天天碎碎念
念我水有没有喝够
有没有运动
夜了催我睡觉

（喉咙痛）
我知错了.....................


还是谢谢啦！友谊万岁！
（怕我不写下来会忘记 ><）

幼稚

蜗牛

有没有试过曾经有一个人这么对你说
“你弹琴弹得不好听，换别人来弹好了”

有没有试过曾经有一个人给你一个眼神，
让你的自信完全消失？

或是一个失望的叹气？


我就是没有让他们打到，
越跌入谷底，我会越用力往上爬。



这些，都是很久很久以前的事了... ...

my cup of starbucks

你知道我 starbucks 都喝什么吗？

 hot latte + cinnamon powder

爱

有没有如偶像剧般的美好结局不重要

重要的是

我们爱生命中的每个小细节

也许

#1. 也许我就是那个

带着遗憾离开世界的人吧？

你不会知道

你应该不知到

我有好多好多好多话想跟你说

好多好多事想让你知道

可是我不知道怎么说... ...

对不起 =(

Best of Both Worlds

有些人试着遗忘过去

有些人试着留住过往

而我，两者兼备

it's really disappointing when you needed support from someone but things turned up the other way

since afternoon

i...... miss you.

Show Off

来来来

向大家炫耀一下下

这是我声乐考试的成绩单

满分 150，优等 130

我得到 126 !

哈哈

不是要炫耀啦

开始决定学声乐，决定拿考试

是因为自己有梦想

可是决定一切顺其自然，

如果成绩不错，就代表我的梦想是能够实现的

但如果不好，也不会勉强，至少我知道自己真的不是那么好

Praise the Lord !

Tough Times

一连串的东东终于结束了

我是真的很忙，也很累

看回自己写过的 stick note 就觉得超有成就感的！

不能相信自己其实做了那么那么多的事，解决了那么那么多问题了！

感谢主啊！

什么事都做不好

其实我刚刚想告诉你，
我今天也很难过

我真的真的对自己很失望

一直都觉得自己能做到，但是一切的结果却是刚刚好相反
已经没有什么借口了，就只能怪自己没用

我一直追求的，一直努力的
最后给我亲手给搞砸了

刚刚在钢琴课，我眼泪就在眼眶，
是拼命地把它忍住了，
不然就会爆发。
而且会一发不可收拾
我真的真的好难过
一想到就想哭

我怎么这样
为什么什么事都做不好...

half asleep

this is when im doing homework half asleep. Zzzz

"iv.) Cara peluang pelajar menggunakan bahan bantu mengajar.

 

            Dalam pemerhatian dan temu bual, pelajar di sini suka sengat menjadi kuliah kebanyakannya di laporan untuk menunjukkan kad perjati.. ditulis demikian makan adalah tidak sekata.

            Kita mencari radio sekolah. Seperti yang dilampirkan, guru jugaperlu mem[unyai imij yang teril nahik engan koko. Pelajar hanya ada peluang untuk melihat kepada ily raffic."

明知故犯

你怎么明知道前面是墙壁

还是固执的大力用头撞呢？

酱子会头破血流的...

原谅我的善忘

我爱回忆过去

重新翻阅往事

才记起曾经发生的点点滴滴

我发现

自己是多么的善忘

别人对我的好

统统都忘了

我做的承诺

统统都忘了

请原谅我的善忘

请你放心

你放心

我不会让自己

第三次受伤

聆听

有些心事说出来了觉得很舒服 

有些心事又有谁愿意来聆听呢？ 

 谁是最佳聆听者？ 

 亲爱主，哦我的主 求你聆听我的心

怀疑

你让我怀疑自己 现在的努力，现在的坚持 是否是值得 难道非得要被世界驯良吗？

好朋友，只是朋友

爱人不是最好的朋友，朋友在好也不能牵手

some friends are best to be remained as friends. <3 div="div">

Destroyer

为什么要把我们压到扁扁？

我讨厌这种被限制的感觉！

我做这个决定是我想要的吗？

我也是要花好多爸爸妈妈的钱也！

你是谁？你凭什么阻止我？

你凭什么阻止我想要的未来？

我讨厌你！

Encik, you seperti monster lah, you are destroying everything!

ROAR

To kill my boredom, 

I think I might update more frequently.

Well well, 

what a new sem,

real new one.

I moved out! 

And one more thing, 

which I think it's a good (but bad) thing

which is 

I'm having 3 or 4 days of physical education class in a week!

How crazy is that! 

and I'm having muscle pain already although today is just the 2nd day..

I shall live with it! 

ROAR

photo from http://www.eightsandweights.com

not today

I think I'll slowly get use of this kind of life.

Today I'll do my facial mask and then sleep earlier.

I'll do cover only when my voice is better 

today is just not my day

Didn't I planned my life that way?

get set, go.

this could be the start of something new

友情

试问

友情

是那么脆弱的东西吗？

无知人说，朋友是拿来利用的

圣经说，朋友为患难而生

我们的友情

是建立在什么上？

我想说，

我不会像他们那么好心

被你们这些不要脸的东西利用

我目前为止

只懂得爱那些爱我的人

对不起我没办法爱你

爱我的人，

我爱你们！

Day by Day

是不是人长得越大

就会越多烦恼？

很烦，很累，很辛苦

好久好久都没有update 了

很烦，很累，很辛苦

应该是自作自受吧

我还要撑下去

就多一个星期

唉，

我向往自由自在的生活

我向往无所事事的生活

我向往无忧无虑的生活

Give me a sign

Dear God,

Is it your will to let me move out from my school hostel?

Please, give me a sign...... T.T

Amen.

GET LOST !

第一次

遇见那么死缠烂打的人

This is the first time I met someone so urghh like you!

这样把快乐建立在别人的痛苦上

很好吗？

Is it good to make people suffer just to make yourself happy?

OMGOSH

This is the first time I hate myself so much!

@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&*&^%

矛盾

唉

你真是让我又爱又恨啊！

有时我们本身就是没察觉到

其实自己

不断地在攻击，伤害他人

就是一句话

或是一个眼神

影响却是很大，很大的！

我相信大家都不是坏人

我们都是

没有心的

我们就只能

原谅

包容

也要顺便让自己麻木吗？

Count your days

Count your days

Click the link and do the survey.

Cherish every moment you have

and everyone by your side.

3 questions to ponder

Why Am I Here?

What Am I Gonna Do Here?

What Will I Do/ Achieve in the Future?

these 3 questions were asked by my lecturer.

She asked us to close our eyes and ponder,

because some of us had been too tired of busyness

and had lost ourselves.

I closed my eyes and while pondering, she played some music.

Soon, without myself realizing,

my tears fell on my cheek

it's an embarrass thing to cry in the classroom,

but I just let it be.

I know why am I here.

Its because God sent me here.

I know His beautiful plan

Everything is so well-planned as it fits perfectly for me.

Life isn't smooth-sailing everyday

There's ups, and of course, downs too!

But I am thankful that throughout this process,

I've known myself better,

and I've learned a lot.

You see,

Among all the profession, Im here, a teacher.

Among all the teacher's training college, Im here, Penang.

Among all the courses, Im here, music education

Among all my peers, Im me.

I am what I am now, it's not because I'm well-trained or that I'm talented.

But a gift, from God.

I know what I'm gonna do here.

I'll take every single chance to learn

gain knowledge and experience that I've never been through.

In the college, what we are learning is not sufficient for me

to achieve what I want,

So I have to take the effort and initiative to

find other ways to make myself a more skillful person.

I know that sometimes, busyness will try to overcome me,

I know that I will be very tired and exhausted

but that's ok, because He knew, and He knows I can.

I know what will I do/ what do I want to achieve in the future.

I want to be prepared to serve the Lord.

Becoming a skillful educator to educate in the school,

and most of all, in the church.

and in the end, the music stopped.

I wiped away my tears and tell myself

God, please don't let me drift away from you

You gave me the chance

to draw me nearer to you,

but not the other way.

I know everything I do

I want to do it, for you.

别找我麻烦

我竟然

把自己的 presentation 给忘了！

乌云乌云快走开

你可知道我不曾带把伞

T.T

寂寞的季节

Love is in the air

"整条街，都是恋爱的人"

一早醒来，这首歌就一直在脑里转了。

活了二十年，

这是第二十个单身情人节 ^_^

也还好，我不寂寞。

就这样

请 珍惜音乐

我讨厌那些自称音乐系大学生，

却不清楚，也不懂得珍惜与欣赏音乐

因学而学，因考而考

这样，有意思吗？

I hate failure

I realize

I lost my confidence.

Afraid to make decision.

Not like before,

so daring.

Its because I have to pay responsibility for every decision I make

and consequences for every mistake I do.

I hate failure.

I Do

我愿意

这么容易就说出口吗？

要做个好妈妈

是终身的职业

是要付起很大很大的责任的

想一想

我们也是从 baby 慢慢长大的

你有把握

能像妈妈照顾你一样

照顾你的 baby 吗？

拜托

不要再制造

问题儿童

To be continue

someday....

What are words

What are words

A song from Chris Medina

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel Lord

What are words?

They are so fragile.

Promises are broken

and hearts too.

Chris Medina dedicated this song to his wife

When you see the video in youtube,

I bet you'll have the urge to cry.

This song keeps spinning in my head.

All by myself

- I went for jogging, by myself. -

是我的福气

离开家，在外地读书之后

才真正体会

“往神的殿去，心就欢喜”

的滋味

就是再压力再忙，

都要让自己到教会去

很意外的，

负担会好像童话故事般

被 “叮” 走

是真的

你的心会平静下来

就是在教会的那种安静，严肃。

还有还有，

就因为星期三是祷告会，

所以祷告时间都会比较长

就是说，

跟主耶稣聊天的时间比较久

能让他知道

我心所想的

我的忧愁

我的问题

我的希望

就好像给爸爸一个拥抱，

很温暖。

我感谢他。

打从心里地感谢。

要不是他选上我，我也不会有这种福气 ♥

不会输给你看！

我知道我过的比很多人更好

虽然

他们有的，我可能没有。

But then

我有的，他们更不可能有！

证明给你看

我会过的更好更好！

哇哈哈

Ignore please

It sucks when you can't be as good as how you wanted to be

Frustrated

I'll get thru it. Ignore please.

就，一半

一半

Half

别来提醒 我多孤单

没关系，我爱孤单

new

应该有新的开始了。

dangerous

My heart keep aching since morning

I think I'll die if I continue.

*Don't do this at home