3 questions to ponder

Why Am I Here?

What Am I Gonna Do Here?

What Will I Do/ Achieve in the Future?

these 3 questions were asked by my lecturer.

She asked us to close our eyes and ponder,

because some of us had been too tired of busyness

and had lost ourselves.

I closed my eyes and while pondering, she played some music.

Soon, without myself realizing,

my tears fell on my cheek

it's an embarrass thing to cry in the classroom,

but I just let it be.

I know why am I here.

Its because God sent me here.

I know His beautiful plan

Everything is so well-planned as it fits perfectly for me.

Life isn't smooth-sailing everyday

There's ups, and of course, downs too!

But I am thankful that throughout this process,

I've known myself better,

and I've learned a lot.

You see,

Among all the profession, Im here, a teacher.

Among all the teacher's training college, Im here, Penang.

Among all the courses, Im here, music education

Among all my peers, Im me.

I am what I am now, it's not because I'm well-trained or that I'm talented.

But a gift, from God.

I know what I'm gonna do here.

I'll take every single chance to learn

gain knowledge and experience that I've never been through.

In the college, what we are learning is not sufficient for me

to achieve what I want,

So I have to take the effort and initiative to

find other ways to make myself a more skillful person.

I know that sometimes, busyness will try to overcome me,

I know that I will be very tired and exhausted

but that's ok, because He knew, and He knows I can.

I know what will I do/ what do I want to achieve in the future.

I want to be prepared to serve the Lord.

Becoming a skillful educator to educate in the school,

and most of all, in the church.

and in the end, the music stopped.

I wiped away my tears and tell myself

God, please don't let me drift away from you

You gave me the chance

to draw me nearer to you,

but not the other way.

I know everything I do

I want to do it, for you.