everything happens, happens for a reason.

dear jane, 
this is a pieces of my mind. hope you find it interesting.

it's like that, that day i played a pop song on the piano, the song is an old old song i used to play when i wan in form 1 form 2. and suddenly this scene popped out of my mind. 
remember some of the prefects (who can play piano) are asked to practice school song and negaraku to play during the assembly? ya, im one of them and you were our ketua. and that time i was not able to play negaraku by notes and it irritated you alot. i used to feel bad but, somehow i think it doesn't affect me much.

and then one day, me and deb and mini were playing on the piano and i played the pop song i mention earlier, and i enjoy playing it so much. and suddenly you passed by and you said to me, "you can play pop song so well but what about the song i asked you to practice?"
and i was like... ahh... sad but still ok la. and i forgot what happen after that. 



well, i am saying this not because i want anything. just... as time went by now i realize. during that time, the reason i was not able to play the song, is not because i can't play or i didnt practice. its actually because a person is not ready. well, after all these years, after all the practices bla bla and at this stage im sure that im now able to play that song. so, same goes to kids when we are teaching. when a kid is ready to do something, they will eventually be able to get it done. likewise, when they are not, even if we force them, it's not gonna work.

another thing i figured out is, i actually found my talent and i realize i actually got that long long ago (even when the time i was able to play that particular pop song) 
it's that i was able to play by ear (hearing), not very good but actually quite well. after all these years i found it a gift. 


ah. anyway, thanks. if it's not you, im not gonna be able to think and get so many conclusion. well i think this is what we say, everything happens, happens for a reason. HAHAHAHAHA =)